Kelly Osbourne's New Body is in Shape

Kelly Osbourne has lived the better part of her adult life in the public eye, including her ups, downs and battles with the scale.

The reality star and former 'Dancing With the Stars' contestant opens up in the December issue of Shape about her struggles with substance abuse and how getting healthy changed her life.

Although Osbourne has never claimed to be a wallflower, she admits that the media scrutiny proved too much for her to handle.

"I understand that being judged by others comes with the territory, but it broke my heart and ruined my self-esteem, " she says. "It sets you up to hate yourself in a huge way."

Since embarking on her quest for better health, her attitude toward her body has changed for the better. The newly svelte star tells Shape, "I stopped hating the way I looked."


On her first time wearing a bikini in Shape:
"Am I really about to bare all to the entire world? I'm so nervous!"

On how criticism of her appearance used to affect her:
"I was so angry about the things people said about me. I truly believe it's the main reason I turned to Vicodin and ended up in rehab three times. I just hated myself."



On getting motivated for her workouts:
"I would look at myself and think, 'Ugh!' I was miserable. To get to the gym -- when you already don't like yourself -- is really hard. So I had to make it fun. I started wearing cute outfits and putting on a little bit of makeup. And as vain as it sounds, it really helped me."

On her 50-pound weight loss:
"Ultimately, I'm really glad I lost the weight the way I did. I never thought in a million years I'd be that healthy girl who wakes up every morning to exercise. After being called 'cherubic and chubby,' I'm rocking a bikini! I feel silly, but I think I'm going to cry. Being on the cover of SHAPE is the biggest victory I could ever hope for."